Friday, January 27, 2006 // Friday, January 27, 2006
if ever dere's a blackout in ur life, let me be e light tat wld guide u back on ur path. no matter how dim e light may seem to be..thanks flor ! i really appreciate having u guys as frens..todae entry will be quite a short one bcoz i'm super tired n unwell..just vomitted..might hav eaten something wrongly..or maybe it's just my stomach being too sensitive..anyw i''m much better nw..dreams..were dey ever true? each time i tink back of e particular dream..my vision wld becum momentarily blurred..plus e fact tat u ask me, " wad if i die young? "... i dunnoe how to answer but i tink i wld answer u back wif a ques..how wld a person feels when he/she is without a heart? i guess tat wld be e way i feel..rmb seeing my grandfather die..frm dere den i realised life is so fragile..i got to cherish every moment of my life fer i maybe gone e next min..it's really devasting to see ur lurve ones leave u..u may then lose e support to live on..tho dey sae dreams will neva cum true..but e feeling tat i had frm tis particular dream was so strong tat i fear tat it might cum true one day..why 27th? i fear fer tml to cum bcoz who knws it maybe 27th of tis month..i always thot tat i'm a strong ger..a ger tat is able to overcome things by myself..a ger who is able to hide my feelings , my tears well..but when i cried on tat day, i realised i wasn't e ger i thot i am.. tears always flow so easily whenever i'm with u..dere are so much things i fear fer..i fear tat i wldn't be able to make it fer a levels..i fear tat u wld leave me someday..i fear tat u wld stop lurving me..i fear tis and i fear tat..i really dread living in a life full of fears..lurve me for who i am...lurve me more than u always do..lurve me bcoz of lurve...
