Monday, February 20, 2006 // Monday, February 20, 2006
i'm quite surprised tat i'm not tat tired today..i think i slept a fair bit today tho i slept quite late last nitex..just couldn't sleep..many things were going thru my mind..guess i have thought thru many things and tat partly explains why i feel much better today..maybe not much but at least slightly better..sorry tat i'm always condictating myself..guess tat's my personality..i can neva ever know wad i want..and even if i do, i won have the courage to purse wad i really wan..and bcoz of tis, i often lose many precious things..i was so near to them yet i'm tat stupid standing down there, looking at them past by me..i neva lyke being a person tat has his goals planned early or right ahead..i simply lurve the life of contradicting..i'm used to it..there are only certain things i will be firm abt..so be glad if u are one of the certain things..i accidently deleted all my messages in my phone..was upset abt it..i lost all the memories..the bdae messages, the friendship messages frm my ijc frens, sec frens, pri sch frens and pjc frens..the goodnite messages tat jasen and helmi used to send me..the humourous messages tat my guy frens send..and MOST IMPORTANTLY, i lost all ur mushy messages.. argh..well maybe i shldn't be upset over it..another contradiction..it's a brand new start to collect new messages again..the most precious memories shld be instill in my mind, i dun need these stuff to remind me..if i can control time, i wan all time to be spend on me..solely on me..a wishful thinking of mine..
