Sunday, April 09, 2006 // Sunday, April 09, 2006
first let me apologize to clement..sorry !!! didn't mean to let u wait so long..but anyway u still did ur business in sch..was attending the NUS talk while waiting for my mum to come..i felt tat i have grown up after attending the NUS talk..i'm no longer a kid anymore..i'm turning 18th soon..i'm quite terrified..fear of the unknown future..i wldn't wan my future to be ruin in my own hands..i have no idea how my future is lyke..heard frm the professor tat NUS do sent their students overseas for studies..i wld lurve to go..but can u imagine how life is going to be when i go there? and how life wld be after i return? my family, my friends and most importantly you..i'm really afraid..when reality becomes scary, wad wld u do? face it or shun it away? my mum finally came..was waiting for our turn..she suddenly mentioned abt seeing someone tat i wld neva expected who he will be..it was ivan..oh well..the first thing tat ah lan say to my mum was, " wad a young mother"..my mummy was so glad abt it..well my mum didn't ask much abt me..probably jus whether if i'm behaving well in sch..ah lan told her i was a quiet ger..and she prefers me to ask alot of questions next time..my mum told her i was quiet at home too ( which i'm not )..i can be talkative at times..only close ppl will noe..haha..my mum is only trying to create a good ger image in front of her..yeah my mum went to find my gp teacher too..asking her to pay more attention to me..she's really concern abt me..tis is the first time i see her so overly concerned abt my results..i lurve u mummy..was i too naive? to believe tat everything tat i see was true..it really freaks me off when i realise how a person can have so many spilt personality..or rather he/she only has one..but he/she manages to cover it well and fake it off well in front of everyone..wad's the reason of wearing a mask to face everyone? after knowing a little more after reading tat " webbie", it really changed my perpsective of tat person, i dunnoe how to face tat person again..i dunwan to be ingenuine towards him/her...tis is rather disturbing..but i still believe tat he/she has a very good reason for doing so..pls prove me right..i might be exaggerating things but it really freak u out when u noe such a person do exist within ur circle..u dunnoe whether to warn ur friends abt it anot? so wad shld i do? someone please enlighten me..some things are really meant to be left unspoken..
