Tuesday, March 13, 2007 // Tuesday, March 13, 2007
It's bcuz of u that i decided to blog again to let you the every little detail of my life..haven't been blogging for ages..when was the last post? probably a few months ago..wad abt today?someone told me something abt myself..Firstly, the person says tat i lyke to keep things all to myself, without letting anyone knowing wad i really feel..Secondly, i always lyke to defend myself..as in not admitting to the actual fact..Thirdly, not being serious when i'm supposed to be..Forthly, i always lyke to shun away from reality..lastly, i always restrict myself to accomodate others..Hm izzit really true? i wonder..May be u can tell me :)wad abt last sat?went to NTU and NUS open house..realised that i had really limited choices..was really a sad thing..If only i had studied harder last year..i wld not have ended up in this current situation whereby courses choose me instead of me choosing the courses..well i hope that i'm able to enter into a course i wan in a local uni without going for any interview..if i really achieved that, i wld make sure that i will try my very best to study well..after the open house, flor, pei and me went shopping..we had a really great day..miss all thoses gossiping sessions wif them..was quite surprised when peipei actually asked me questions abt lurve matters..she dun used to..well manage to answer a few of their questions and gave them some appropriate advice..but come to think, if i were in those situation, wld i do wad i've advice them or will i just ended up doing wad they did? it's always easy to advice ppl but hard to advice urself..we all know that..wad is lurve? How do u know tat u lurve the person? Why do guys have so much pride? Why can guys put on such a good fake front and carry on with their lives without feeling anything? why why? questions lyke tat made up the main topics that we discuss on tat very night..Do pride mean so much to a guy? Is he willing to forgo his pride for u? or rather i wld asked are u willing to forgo ur pride for me? Guys dun understand gers..Gers dun understand guys..wad to do?guess flor has really lose faith in lurve relationships..she kinda of influenced me as well..how long can u make sure that the other party will continue lyking u , lurving u? U fear that when he gets to know u better, he will not lyke u anymore.. U wonder how to make a relationship last forever..? Is there forever? someone says there isn't at all, nothing is forever..i beg to differ..Forever lasts in one's hand..There can only be forever if u wan it to be forever..For something to last forever, u need to make the effort to make it last..Besides no one can be so sure that there can be no forever..everlasting lurve, forever friends, sisters forever..these phrases dun just appear for fun..there is forever if u wan it to be..on that night, flor, peipei and i wrote 10 wishes on a balloon that we get from NUS open house and released it into the air..Rmb clearly that two wishes, one is to find the right guy at the right time..the other is to find someone that will really cherish who we really are..
