Saturday, May 24, 2008 // Saturday, May 24, 2008
i thought i could get over it as i didn't shed a single tear after he mention that ..
i thought i was strong.. but maybe not that strong..
When i saw his display picture, the one he taken smiling and in his JC uniform.. It just seem to bring back the 2 year 6 months memories we had together..
How we met in JC..
How we used to be at loggerheads at each other..
The first sentence he said to me : u look nice in ur uniform
Our first date: marina square..
Our first movie: April Snow
The movie ticket that has his name and signature on it.. the ten dollar double heart that he fold for me.. The sweater..
Our first holiday trip to Hong Kong..
How i take care of him..
Our first argument..
Our first jealousy..
Our first holding hands..
Our first kiss..
that's just so many things to miss.. i miss the chemistry that we used to have... i miss the love that we used to share..
Are you missing these as much as i do?
Maybe not.. judging from wad you have said, it seems clearly that you have move on and decided that you should.. It's no one fault why this rship dies.. If your reading this, I'm really sorry for causing this rship to end this way. I'm willing to take up the blame alone. And i really want to thank you for all the love, effort and care you gave me. I felt really loved and blessed during the past 2 year and 6 months.. Thanks for being part of my life..
So much love..
Hope we will still be able to remain as friends because i dun wan to treat a person that i used to love totally as a stranger. Blame me for my selfishness. I'm sure that you are able to find a better girl than me. I'm not nice.
Much thanks to those who stay by my side during my down period. Thanks for all the concern given. Really appreciated that. Dun worry, i'll be fine. For i am Eileen. The strong girl that won't tear easily.
