the last message ended with him saying all the best to you too.
this morning i recieved a msg from him.
it's nearly 5 months ever since i last heard from him.
didn't wished him happy birthday on 17th May.
hm wait a min,
i think i did. on my blog.
he will only see it if he reads my blog.
it's highly unlikely.
he started off by asking me,
" how have i been all these while and how my grades are lyke this sem? "
hesitated but gave in.
i replied.
he congrats me for my outstanding results.
and
he apologized.
he knew that this apology was overdue.
he continued saying that he's been feeling guilty all these while.
finally summed up the courage to apologize to me for whatsoever he done.
i replied.
there's no need for him to feel guilty as
all these has happened.
it can only be locked in the past.
an apology now won't do anything.
when we broke up,
i thot he owe me an apology.
he has been acting lyke a jerk.
constantly mentioning break up every now and then.
but now
hearing him apologizing,
i dun seem to see myself wanting this apology anym.
prob i have alr let go and move on.
he commented that i have been a great ger.
been there
to give him all the care he needs.
as he is a guy who needs to be taken care of instead of vice versa.
i smiled
at least my efforts are paid off.
but if it's so.
then there comes the question
why we ended this way?
our conversation somehow come to a stop
he says he will speak to me again.
i wondered what more can we tok abt?
if someone asks,
do i still think abt him?
do i still care for him?
my answer would be yes.
it's obvious.
we been together for 3 years plus.

i still care for him.
only as a fren.
for now the guy that is standing beside me is no longer him anymore.